I have been trying my best to be as optimistic as possible. Now, I am afraid that I will fall hard. I keep telling HIM, nothing is confirmed. We just have to wait and see for awhile more. But I myself, am really afraid. Instead of trying to stand up and brave through the storm together, he just assume that all is over for him. This makes the already unstable me worse. What I heard today may be true. But I also wish that what Grace told me is also true. I really do hope so.